Just this week I've started studying Nehemiah. He was a great leader of people. However, even though Nehemiah was a great leader the one thing that he understands is who God is. Why do I say that, when Nehemiah found out that his ancestors were not doing well in Jersuleum. He didn't complain, He didn't get angry. He weeped. He felt the pain of the people that were suffering. Then Nehemiah began to pray and fast, that God would prepare him to help his people.
Nehemiah 1: 3-6a I asked them about the Jews who had returned there from captivity and about how things were going in Jerusalem. They said to me, “Things are not going well for those who returned to the province of Judah. They are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem has been torn down, and the gates have been destroyed by fire.” When I heard this, I sat down and wept. In fact, for days I mourned, fasted, and prayed to the God of heaven. Then I said, “O Lord, God of heaven, the great and awesome God who keeps his covenant of unfailing love with those who love him and obey his commands, listen to my prayer!
It is said that before he made a move he stayed in prayer for 4 months waiting to hear from God. He was diligent in preparing his self by confession that not only did he know that he had sin, but even his family had sin. But he asked God to remember the promises that you have given your people to bring them back to the promise land.
It is my desire to be like Nehemiah. To wait for God, to not rush God. To be the type of Chrisitian that just doesn't pray after I have been disobediant to God. Then I have to ask God to fix my problems when I know I shouldn't have done it in the first place. I want to be the type of Christian that is also willing to tackle the impossible. I have to be willing to step out on faith to rebuild the wall.
The wall represents the weakness in my life. It's the places that if not protected or strengthen can in essence destroy me. It's the things in my life that I know are no good for me, but I continue to do them anyway. It's the places in my life where I have been hurt and even though I am healed and recovered. I still walk through life as if nothing has change and I am still hurt. For example, there is a senior saint that I know that fell about 4 months ago and has been in the hospital for most of that time. She desires to go home, but because she fell 4 months ago and hasn't walked in a while, she is afraid to walk. Her body has been healed, her muscles are able, but in her mind, she can't do it. I think that is a great example of how I operate in some areas of my life. Everything points to being healed. But I have made up my mind that I can't.
God desires for us to rebuild. He wants us to pray, fast and wait. He will then give us favor in the places we need to rebuild. He will send people that can help us through the process. Because in most cases, we can't rebuild the wall by ourselves. We need each other. I need you to help me rebuild, and I will help you rebuild and together, the wall will get built.
