Why is the question?

So I haven't posted a blog since January.  I have been journaling and tonight I just felt like I wanted to share my thoughts with the world so to speak.   Love is such a hard thing to grasp.  Relationships are so uncertain and the mystery of them always leaves me wondering.   Why is it so hard to forget the past hurts, pain, lies, different goals, wrong type, not saved and etc... you feel in the blank___________, that it makes it so difficult to trust new relationships.   Why is it sometimes our emotions are so fragile like an expensive vase that we keep them on the shelves of our lives never to take them down.  So they sit on the shelves, and they collect dust, sometimes we take it off the shelf if only for a little bit we dust it off  but because we are too scared or fearful that it will break we quickly put it back on the shelf for it's protection, for safety.   We may even go as far as to put the vase in a case, and we may even lock it, so that it makes it impossible for anyone to ever touch the vase.  Then we put the key away, in safe place.  

My thought is that just as vases are meant to be used to hold beautiful flowers, our emotions, our hearts are meant to be filled with love for another.  We were not created to live in isolation.  We were not created to live in fear.  I know that with my mind, and my intellect, but I cant' convince my heart to follow so easily.   I think that sometimes i'm so afraid of being hurt( of my vase breaking) that i'm not even willing to give love a try.  I'm not willing to risk being hurt.  I'm not willing to be vulnerable with another person.  What my intellect knows is that love is worth the risk, it is worth stepping out of one's comfort zone to experience the love that God has given us to share with one another.   What I have been told that even if your heart gets broken, it won't be broke always, you can recover.  

As I ponder these thoughts, I know that I have lots of relationships with both men and woman that I keep at a distance.    I'm working on it, I'm working on letting my guard down, and I want to encourage you today that if you have taken your precious vase and put it in a case and locked it with a key.  Go get your key, unlock the case, and for today at least let there be access to the vase.  Let there be access to your heart.  You don't have to take it off the shelf immediately but you do have to take it out of the case.  The vase of life is most beautiful when those around it are free to put flowers in it.   When those around are able to experience the gift that you are to the world.  

I hope that as I have shared my thoughts today, that someone in this cyber world has been encouraged to try, to trust and to know that you are not alone.

Peace and Blessings,
TS